as the lights take me away, i feel it, smoke rising in my throat, burning everything in its way.
spills out of my mouth, flying up into the air and just like me it disappears.
it all fades just like everything else. and just like everything else it all links back to you.
all my thoughts, feelings and tears.
i bleed now because of you. starve because of you.
when the smoke appears in front of my eyes i think of you, brown deer like eyes and short choppy brown hair.
black eyeliner and cigs, pills and cuts, purple.
forever purple. forever my first. forever linking back to you.
never fading away.