12:45 pm it's boxing day! usually there's a lot of sales happening but so many stores are closed :( christmas was alright i love all the gifts i got!! i went to my grandmas for dinner and it was soooo boring omg. i wish i was with him instead, we got each other christmas presents!! i'm seeing a movie today with my dad! it's the new bob dylan movie i hope it's good. we both got presto cards which is how we can ride the bus!! so i'm pretty excited about that.
1:45 pm i feel like shit. he reposts all these tiktoks about how much he likes me but i just don't feel it. irl i can tell but over text i just can't which sucks because thats our main source of communication. we never call which i hate but he said he likes texting me more than calling. when we first met it was all better. he wasn't so dry over text like he is now. i fucking hate it. why did he have to change? i know i'm just seeing this all wrong but idk how to change. i love him so much.
7:22 pm the movie was pretty good! the theatre was packed! i've never seen it so busy, every time i go to that one theatre i get so anxious like my heart is always pounding and i can never feel calm. i hate it. i wish i lived with him. being away from him is the worst. i wish i brought my notebook with me i always write better in there. i never write my poems on my computer, i'm not sure why.