despite this being a good thing i feel weird. like not as happy as i was when i got together with my ex. i have no idea why. i feel so sick i hate it. i want this to all go away. why am i still depressed? i took my meds. i had a great time with him on the weekend. i dont understand myself sometimes. i'm at school right now. i was supposed to work an extra shift at co-op but my boss said i can go early and do an extra shift tmr. so now i'm just reading manga and writing this blog entry. i missed my blog so much haha. i wasn't home that much this weekend. i can't believe i've had this website for over a month! time has gone by so so fast. i should probably get something to eat. i would like to run away with him, somewhere far away where no one knows us. i think he wants that too. even if this isn't the same i'm still grateful.