20/10/2024 10:46 pm i'm dumb and idk how to code, so i don't really know why i'm even here. i guess no one knows the answer to that question. it plagues so many of us. itry not to think on it too much as to me the answer doesn't matter. sure my parents had sex and now i'm here. i doubt that they truly ever wanted me. does a person ever truly want a child? i feel like it's all selfish in a way, they're thinking about themselves and what the child will do for them. they use the excuse of being a parent to do whatever they want. i hate it. i don't want children ever. the idea disgusts me. my future isn't that interesting but i'm ok with that, i'm choosing to have it that way so i must be ok with it. no point in getting upset with something you chose. i'm coming down from being high and i think i might have strep throat. i hope not. i have plans for tomorrow. go to co-op, getting a cookie and coke zero for lunch, work on my review for the school paper and do a philosophy assignment. i might also have to walk home but i don't mind the weather has been nice lately. i love fall. i tried a pumpkin spice iced chai yesterday it was very good. i wish i could figure out how to add pictures as they are one of my favourite things. anyway goodnight