first day back and i already hate it lol. some people in my philosophy class seriously piss me off!! they become so entitled they refuse to listen to other peoples ideas. i hate getting so anxious about him, i'm always worrying that something is wrong or that he's mad at me. i can never tell through his texts. i hate it. it's much easier when we are hanging out.
i'm so fucking on edge holy shit, everything feels wrong i need him back why is he so far away fuck fuck fuck. i wish i could just live with him forever and ever. i'll be his fucking slave. i'll do anyhting he asks, i've already done so much for him more than any other girl would. i've done right down dehumanizing things for him. he will never and i mean NEVER find another girl like me. i hate that i freak out over nothing it's so so so annoying, i know that nothing is wrong but i just can't believe it yk?? idk how to explain it without sounding insane lol
i'm trying so hard not to split on him right now but it's so hard, having bpd symptoms while being in a relationship is so so fucking difficult omg. at least he understands my issues but i get so scared of him getting sick of me. i don't want to become too much for him. anyway on a brighter note i got accepted into 2 colleges!! i'm so so proud of myself eeeee :33333