i wish i was enough for him. i know you're thinking that i probably am and i might be but i don't feel it. he is lightyears above me. he is so much cooler and just smarter. even though i'm the older one i feel so small. it's not a power dynamic at all. i always feel this way compared to whoever i'm dating lol. it sucks a lot. i wish i could open his brain and read his mind, just see what's going on inside there. he has said that i am enough for him which is nice. he also said i make him happy. i wonder how he feels compared to me. does he have the same worries as me? the same insecurities? i can only wonder. tomorrow is the first day back to school after the winter break. this break has gone by so fast, it was much better than last years. as in i just did more stuff and had more fun lol. i kinda miss school but also not, i like learning a lot it's just ppl at school suuuuuuck. i am excited to hangout with my friends more!! todays been boring i've just been sleeping all day. i had pizza for dinner. my room got painted white it looks so weird now. it's so empty too. i went to the mall yesterday to use some of the giftcards i got for christmas. then i hungout with my ex... lol it was nice we just walked to the store and smoked a bit.