10:18 am why do i never learn? i keep fucking up over and over. i try so hard not to but it feels out of my control. he said he's not mad at me but i can tell. i wish i was better anad not so fucking crazy. i want to be normal. and just have a regular brain, one that doesn't ruin my life. ireally wish this paranoia would just go away entirely. it ruins everything. i ovethink shit like fucking crazy.
