first day of march!! i love the start of each month, new start and beginnings. i feel so strange though i have no idea how to explain it. looking at the old entires when i was still with O makes me so sad, i was in such an awful situation and i only stayed because i was still so scared of being alone. but i'm happier without him, so so much happier. i do miss him sometimes despite everything he did. i met a new guy, we've hung out every day this week so far. i see myself in him so much, he truly understands how it feels. he told me he loves me last night, i said it back. i'm scared of loving someone again, i don't want to lose myself again.